It has been a long time since I have shared a personal post on my blog. For the past 4-5 months the biggest thing on my heart has been our pregnancy, which we haven’t shared until just recently. It hasn’t felt authentic to write about anything else–and I just can’t do non-authentic. It feels good to be back on the keyboard and typing my thoughts and feelings.
We feel so fortunate that we have been blessed with this miracle of a baby boy. Our road to pregnancy hasn’t exactly been a straight path but all of the curves, twists, and turns have been worth arriving at this moment. We wake up every day thankful that our baby boy is thriving in the womb and we can’t wait until we are able to meet him in person. We are not taking any moment for granted–we know life is a gift.
I wouldn’t feel right without saying that my heart goes out to all of the moms who are still in waiting. I know it can be so hard to patiently wait for your turn to experience the joy of pregnancy. Throughout our journey, I went through many different stages–anger, sadness, jealously–you name it. It wasn’t until I sought refuge in God that I felt contentment and peace around our situation. Only He can bring true peace. I came to understand that things would work out in God’s time. I had read accounts of miracles happening in the Bible and I prayed that we would one day too experience a real-life miracle. When Cody and I were able to step back and let go is when it happened for us. We were given a miracle.
I know that those words can be a hard pill to swallow especially when you are in the season of waiting. It can seem like you have waited your whole life–you may even wonder if you will ever be a mom. I know I questioned “why” I had to wait–was I not fit to be a mom? Is it something I did? Is God protecting us from something that wasn’t meant to be? I think it is normal to question situations that don’t go as planned or expected but it can become dangerous when you start believing lies that you are not good enough or not deserving enough to be a mom. Your thoughts matter. When I was battling negative though patterns last summer, I had a specific friend question me on what I was believing for. Of all places, it was on a wine tour–an unexpected place for that caliber of a conversation. 🙂 It was in that moment though, I realized I wasn’t actually thinking and believing that I would one day have a child. It was my wakeup call. It helped me to understand the importance of speaking life-giving words over myself and believing that miracles happen.
The good thing about being in a season of waiting is that seasons change. My plea to you, moms in waiting, is that you never lose hope. I know what it feels like to feel hopeless and it isn’t a good place to be. I know it is easy for me to say now, being on the other side of conception, but hope, belief, and letting go is what got me through. It wasn’t easy, but what is? Anything worth having in your life takes intention. I am still not perfect at it, nor will I be–that’s not a realistic expectation. I want you to believe that you will receive a miracle and know that you are 100% worthy of a miracle. Never stop believing that miracles happen. Speak life over yourself.
Although I have enjoyed opening up and sharing our news, my heart yearns for you to have this experience too. Moms in waiting, you will always be in my prayers.
While I was in waiting, I referred to the story of Hannah often in the Bible. I first learned of the story when a good friend invited me to her church in January of this past year. It resonated with me and it was a sermon I will never forget. Her story can be found in 1 Samuel 1; 2:1-11.
“For this child I have prayed, and the Lord granted me my petition of which I ask of him.” 1 Samuel 1:27
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Thank you Gina for sharing your story and for the hope you give to mothers in waiting! You’re such an inspiration and breath of fresh air!
I think Samuel is a good name for a baby boy ☺️
Thank you for the message Hayley! I do hope that the moms in waiting find hope in this! After my mom read this post, she was convinced Samuel is the name. Maybe… maybe not! To be determined! lol
You will be an amazing mom! Thanks for sharing this post.
Thank you for the sweet message Roxy! So glad that we have become friends over the past 6 months or so. You are awesome! Xo
Gina, what a beautiful letter. I am so proud of you! You are a Wonderful gal and God has a purpose for all of us. You deserve this little boy and you two will be great parents. I’m so glad that you and Cody are Taylors God parents ! You will great parents and I’m glad you’re in Katy and Bens lives. I pray for you little baby boy daily . God is an awesome God.
Thank you so much for the sweet message Julie. We are so happy to have Katy, Ben, Taylor, Sandy, and you in our lives. We think of all of you like family. We are blessed to be Taylor’s godparents and can’t wait for her to meet our little one. She will be showing him the ropes I am sure. Yes, our God is an awesome God. 🙂
My friend shared your post with me. I know I don’t know you, but I thank you for this. Every word. I am in tears as I write this to you…
My husband and I just celebrated our 5th year wedding anniversary and I am so thankful for how much we have grown together, individually and most importantly with the Lord. I wanted kids from the moment we said “I do”, but we chose to wait in order to establish being married. (VERY good decision 🙂 )
Now 5 years later, 2.5 years into pulling the goalie, and one very early recent miscarriage… we’re believing and waiting for our babies. It is so easy to get off the “faith wagon” per say. It’s so easy to become discouraged when you aren’t letting our good, good Father give us life, joy, patience, etc. I know He’s not “making me wait”, but it’s easy to lose hope in our “want it now” mindset.
I completely believe and put into practice speaking out miracles, but have become stagnant here (again) recently. So long story short…. Thank you for this jump start of my heart. Thank you for your story and being brave enough to share it. I am SO happy for you and your husband. I am believing and speaking over your pregnancy and birth to be one of continued miracles. Keep writing my friend. 🙂
Amanda, Thank you so much for the sweet message and for sharing your story. I am so glad you have faith in your heart and continue to believe and speak over yourself. I know that some days are easier than others but the important thing is that you keep your head up and keep moving forward without losing your faith. I believe and pray that your time will come. I can’t wait until the day you are able to come back to this thread and share your own miracle with us. I am so glad you enjoyed this post and thank you again for sharing your heart. Xoxo.